Your whole life is made up of small moments. Moments that can last for what feels like never ending, torturous hours. Moments that are over before they begin. All these moments are put together like a film, where all the nanosecond long shots are put together into this moving picture, with colours, sounds and emotions, and make our lives. Everyone’s movie is different.
The world is such an unfair place. All these moments are out of your control. Sometimes, they drain you and leave you with nothing but this emptiness inside you. A void that you don’t even notice until it starts pulling in the rest of you.
One moment can change everything. Have you ever heard of the Butterly Effect*? This is something I find abundantly fascinating. Just think about it… if you did one little thing differently, your whole life could’ve been completely different today. That compliment you told that girl at school could’ve changed her entire self-esteem. That comment you made to that guy because you’re friends were watching and you wanted to act cool? 2 weeks ago in class? Remember? That could’ve caused the red marks on his wrist that he tries so hard to hide. That party you went to? Imagine if you stayed home, imagine if you never met her. You wouldn’t have become friends, you would’ve have had those conversations that changed your whole world.
All these choices It can make your day, change your mood, make up your mind about something, change the way you see someone, something or yourself.
It can change your life.
Scary, isn’t it?
All these little actions have such a monumental impact on our lives in the future. To me, I feel overcome with a sense of responsibility, thrill, guilt and fear all at the same time. This gets overwhelming, but it also makes me realise somethings.
How careful can you be? We can all watch every single step we take, every minute of our lives. We can bite back our tongues, plan everything out and do everything with the future in mind. But, doesn’t that feel like a waste? Truth is, you don’t know what’s going to happen. Unless they invent a time machine in the next few years, you’re not going to be able to predict the future. You can act a certain way, or be a certain person, but either way, you’re heading towards the inevitable unknown. This is why I say LIVE IN THE MOMENT. Yes, I know you’ve heard it all a billion times.
People have a scary obsession with control. For all we know, the world could end in the next 5 minutes. The rain might be purple tomorrow.
We don’t have all the answers and people just can’t accept that. That’s why you live in the moment. You appreciate the opportunities you have and you look at her for a second longer, just to see her eyes, just to feel her hair. Just because. Stop looking for a reason for everything. Stop looking for explanations. Do things because you want to do them. Love these people without having to explain why you love them. Eat that last slice of pizza, because no one’s going to care. Look out the window, listen to the stars that swim the dark. Smile at the sun that blinds you and laugh without having a reason. And last of all, you breathe, you just breathe.
(with reference to chaos theory) the phenomenon whereby a minute localized change in a complex system can have large effects elsewhere